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07 October 2002 @ 06:57 am
why I want a journal  
Ok for real this time:

While I appeciate the desires that wandelrust wrote, to be able to look back on old entries and recall past memories. In fact, I've really enjoyed reading through old journals of mine that I've come across cleaning out my room. Hundreds of memories flooding back to me, and not all of them good.

But what I'm really interested in is other people finding and reading my journal long after I'm gone, to get a feel for what my life was like, who I was as a person.
I've recently (in the past few years) lost both my mother and my maternal grandfather. And I've relished in each little piece of their past that I've come across. I'm sorry that there isn't more left from my grandfather's life. A few letters and trinkets, but not enough to get a true sense of the man. Fortunately I had many years to spend with my grandfather to get to know him, unfortunately my potential kids wont have that chance. For my grandfather I guess that isn't too unreasonable, I didn't know either of my great-grandfanthers, and only barely new my great-grandmother Seiger. But I did get a chance to know my great-grandma Bowers, and those are memories I treasure.
But what about my mom? My kids won't get to know their grandmother at all. And that really pisses me off. Now with my Dad's ALS, there's a good chance they won't get to know their grandfather either. How am I going to be able to do either of their memories justice to my kids. I have no idea.
So I want to leave more behind. Something that my kids, and their kids can look back on and get some glimps as to who I was. I'm not sure if this is the best way to do that, but it can't hurt, and it's better than nothing.</ljcut>
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